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I Was Judged At 235lbs – Now I’m Skinny Shamed | BRAND NEW ME

i had food be everything food wasn’t meant to be food was my friend food was my confidant food was my comfort and i would eat to the point of passing out the girls in high school called me the blob they would see me and say the blobs coming run for your lives i didn’t want to live another year of my life in the body i was in and i knew i needed to make a change i probably weighed 2 35 i am now about 135. when i lost the weight i thought the world’s going to accept me everything’s going to be great and then you realize no [Music] i was called lots of names growing up the girls in high school called me the blob they would see me and say the blobs coming run for your lives my grandparents once they saw an obese person crossing the street and they told me they’re like if you ever get that big we’ll shoot you and i was like 12 i’m like you’d rather have me dead than fat it really made me feel like i was never good enough that there was something wrong with me that i didn’t deserve what everybody else had in terms of happiness a life or enjoying things because you’re not worth it i probably weighed 235 with my known weight when i was heaviest but i was probably much heavier than that judging by pictures but i was scared of the scale so i just ignored it for a few years doing my job as a pastry chef was really hard being overweight because i was just in pain all the time and i thought that’s just normal but turns out it’s not my relationship with food was intense i had food be everything food wasn’t meant to be food was my friend food was my confidant food was my comfort i would eat to the point of either passing out or almost puking or just being in intense pain and it’s like food isn’t supposed to be be like that the way it affected my physical health i had high cholesterol my skin was awful my hair was awful i didn’t want to live another year of my life in the body i was in when i envisioned my future it wasn’t overweight it wasn’t being obese and i knew i needed to make a change so i looked into surgical options i had gastric sleeve surgery on february 10 2020 just because you had surgery doesn’t mean that like everything’s gonna be solved in your life i work out maybe three to five times a week so i’ll go on the treadmill for a mile or so i’ll go on the bike for three miles i’ll do some weight machines i also hula hoop i dance around my house i probably weighed 2 35 i am now about 135 and i’ve lost 100 pounds so when i lost the weight i thought the world’s going to accept me everything’s going to be great and then you realize no that’s not what happened i think my first experience with that was i asked for a smaller size uniform at my job and was told to eat a cheeseburger you wouldn’t say that if i had come to you when i was 100 pounds heavier you wouldn’t tell me to go on a diet when i was first skinny shamed like having the comment of eat a cheeseburger it really struck me because i’m like you can’t win you can’t win in life but you can win with yourself there are some negative comments that do get to me but at the same time i’m like katie you’re beautiful you got what you wanted this is the body this is the life you dreamt of i hold on to that and i just see what i used to be and remember how i felt in in that body in that life i still have the same heart the same soul the same values the same kindness that does not change because you lost 100 pounds my excess skin loose skin doesn’t really bother me because i know the alternative i live the alternative that i’d rather have the jiggly skin than have it not fit into clothing and one day i probably will get it removed that’s just not in my time frame right now how i look now is better than i ever thought i could ever be it’s like you dream of like what your dream body is and i never thought this was possible for me the weight loss changed my life because it’s given me back a life it’s given me a future and new opportunities that i never thought would be possible [Music] [Applause] [Music] you
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