[Music] at my heaviest i saw 352 pounds like oh i’ve tried to lose weight a million times i never did the clouds were heavy and dark and i was drowning i was drowning and i was sad and so unwilling to accept that this was my life and then the new year’s resolution knew me new carla i just gave up carbs and sugar watching that scale go down was intoxicating we are about to see my skin there’s plenty of it how do you feel [Music] scared my weight loss journey so i’ve been overweight my whole life i was raised by a single mom so it was an income thing she worked long hours so i was indoors all the time watching tv hanging out i grew up and was about 200 pounds by the sixth grade by my senior year i was 300 pounds the clouds were heavy and dark and i was drowning i was drowning and i was sad it’s harder to exist in this world being bigger i remember as a kid watching infomercials for weight loss products and just salivating at the at the hope of one day fitting this mold and it was so toxic as a kid and i don’t know i was so unwilling to accept that this was my life it’s like oh i’ve tried to lose weight a million times i never did never i dreamt of it i um always had self-doubt even though i was loud and outgoing i met my husband and i was still very big so kudos adam i love him he always saw through that my emotions were were too distracting and my marriage was suffering so i was in a terrible place with my husband and i was overweight and unhealthy and i had high blood pressure that i couldn’t manage i needed to take charge of my life i needed to take charge of my relationship with food and then january 14th of 2019 super dramatic on a monday morning as cliche as it sounds it was like a new year’s resolution new me new carla i just gave up carbs and sugar [Music] i lost like 15 or 20 pounds i lost all this weight so fast first hundred pounds in less than seven months it was just melting off i wasn’t even exercising it was just low carb sugar-free religiously watching that scale go down i don’t know it was intoxicating [Applause] to date the gym is so intimidating i’m kind of glad it’s winter because i can just say oh i’m just going to work out at home [Music] if i’m having a good day i’ll do 10 more reps than what the video says if i’m not then i can just do what the video says and i still feel accomplished [Applause] at my heaviest i weighed 352 pounds and now i weigh 210. i have lost about 150 pounds [Music] now my journey means that someone out there can start their own or can change something or can find hope because it’s hard life is hard we are about to see my skin there’s plenty of it how do you feel scared i carried almost all of my weight in my midsection it’s hard when you work so hard to not be exactly what society’s you know ideal beauty is acceptance is a work in progress this is what 150 pounds of weight loss has left over some days it’s empowering in some days it’s body dysmorphia and you just feel like gross i want other people to know how fine it is to look different i don’t care about my arms i don’t care about my legs something about the midsection it’s just hard this is the hardest part to to accept there are days where i’m so damn proud that life is different that it doesn’t matter if my skin is there there’s high waisted leggings for a reason [Music] your legs are getting tired oh my gosh i have three daughters now i can go down the kid’s slide with them because i’m not gonna get stuck on the kids slide now i can chase them down the block on their bike [Music] i’m better than i ever have been i have a different job a different outlook on my marriage my kids are healthy and growing and i am proud that that i’ve done something that not everyone does i am proud that i naturally lost 150 pounds i want some chubby girl to see this and be like oh god it’s okay wherever you are right now doesn’t have to be your final spot learning to love my skin has brought new opportunities never let fear stop you you Video source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXlGGQ70mUA
